Hard days

Do you ever have those days where you feel like you can't do anything right? Well, I've had one of those WEEKS. And apparently it's still not done. :( I hate when I feel helpless, or bad about something I've done or said, especially to a good friend. And I hate when my emotions get the best of me. I haven't let that happen for a good while.

I also hate feeling torn between two people. Anybody that knows me knows that I am utterly loyal, unless something has been done to rip that loyalty away. I can't pick sides. But I also can't abandon one over the other. I've been trying really hard to act like everything is alright and put a smile on my face, but that gets tiring after a while. 

I don't know who actually reads this, but I apologize to those that I've acted rudely to, or given the cold shoulder to the last week. For some reason I've been a lot more sensitive to comments than normal. I'll be alright soon. At least I hope so. 

EDIT: you won't read this, but i feel like we're drifting. i want to go back to a week and a half ago, before all the tears, when we could spend hours just sitting and talking. that was one of the best weeks of my life.