never good...

i've never been good at talking about my feelings.
sure, i'm an open book, but when it comes to feelings, i close up like a clam.
even when i was already in the process of dating some guy, when it came time to discuss things and to clarify, he had to drag it out of me. and even then, i muffled my confession behind a pillow out of embarrassment.
why?
who knows.
i'm still trying to figure it out.
and it's been so long since i've had to do that, i think i've forgotten how difficult it is for me.

so, here it is, my confession:

i like you. i've liked you for a while, but i tried to deny it.

i wanted to tell you, i just couldn't. something stopped me every time. nor did i ever have the opportunity to say it.

but it doesn't really matter, does it?
i'll never get the courage or the chance to tell you to your face.
sorry for that.