weekly musings

{i've decided that since i've written down some thoughts quite often these last few weeks that i would make it a regular occurrence on my blog. looks like tuesdays are good days for thoughts}

~i miss soccer. and i'm terrible at being a fan.~ 

but let me elaborate:

last night i went and watched the cherrypickers play at lindon. it was strange being in the stands instead of on the field. and i don't think i liked the experience. i got distracted. whereas, when i'm playing, or resting even, i'm focused on the game and know what's going on. also, whenever i watch soccer (no matter what kind of league it is) i always involuntarily react to what's going on on the field, whether that means having my leg twitch in response to a pass or an open shot, or getting much too involved in the bad calls, inappropriate fouls from the other team, what have you. however, i'm also a good fan for the mere reason that i cheer everyone on, encouraging them through all aspects of the game. and sometimes i get far too into it, standing up and yelling extremely loudly (usually, by myself too) which i'm sure embarrasses those on the field, and those that have to sit next to me. i apologize.

~i <3 history.~

my mom got me this book called speeches that changed the world and i just started reading it yesterday at work. some are hard to read/understand/comprehend, mostly because they're old, like, 17th/18th centuries old and i don't know much about the history surrounding the speeches. (and at times i feel like i'm reading from a textbook, and let's be honest, i rarely did that while in school) so it's hard to focus and i get distracted a lot, being at work and all. however, i thoroughly enjoy it and am trying to absorb as much as i can from them. i told my mom that some of them are pretty relevant for our day and the things that were said made me stop and re-think my stance on issues. i'll post some particularly significant ones at a later date (not to rile anyone up, just for my (and your) perusal)

~scarves > turtlenecks~

i thought about posting that on facebook, and then i remembered (1) that i'm trying to wean myself off of facebook (yes, it's back) and use it less often, and (2) it would probably get the wrong reactions from people (or the right reactions, and give the wrong impression). but i'm wearing a scarf today (and wore it last night as well) and i just feel so, well, classy. it keeps me warm, it accentuates my outfit and i can adjust it as needed/wanted. plus, i can take it off if i want to (and it can hide anything that needs hiding. not saying i need it, but just in case, it's there, and it's not so blatant as a turtleneck)

~colton analyzed anna and i last night~

anna and i tend to discuss why boys won't date us, a LOT. she mentioned that colton had told her that she is intimidating. i said that someone i knew had said that i was intimidating as well. we were curious to find out what made us intimidating to boys. colton was nice enough to elaborate: he said we're pretty and confident and know what we want in life, which comes off as intimidating. interesting. he then gave us his 3.5 ways to get a date (with a 100% success rate). as he discussed them, i nodded my head in agreement, because they're such simple tasks. however, i told him afterward, that i felt like i had tried all of those things and nothing had come of it. and he said, well, if you do all of these things and the guy is interested, he'll ask you out. so obviously, that's my problem. i'm always interested in the guys that aren't interested in me. guess i need to find myself a new pool to fish in. so as part of my 2011 goals, i'm going to implement those steps and see if i can't snag myself a date (or two!)

~basketball season has begun!~

january = basketball season (for me, at least). i know it started way back in november, but provo city basketball has officially entered regular season this week. which means, i'll have no social life until march. i work tonight for two hours, tomorrow for three, saturday for three. and i allowed myself to be available tuesday through saturday next week. sorry friends, but i love my basketball boys. if you really want to see me, come visit me at work. bring dinner. i'll return to you all, eventually. maybe once softball is over in august ;)

~my hair won't grow~

and it makes me sad. i need it long. but stupid dry/splint ends are holding me back. i don't want to cut those off because then i'll have taken 2 steps back. *sigh* by june it should be long, well, longer. here's to hoping.