musings and news boys

so i'm sitting here at work, with not much to do, and i thought to myself, i should probably do a real post on my blog. it's been a while since i've written anything profound or interesting (not like anyone reads this much anyway, except maybe my mom, but even that i'm sure, isn't very often)
perhaps i should start with news:

i am moving back to utah

yup, didn't see that one coming, huh? (or, maybe you did, since i talk about it practically every second of every day). well, to be honest, neither did i. i went to visit last weekend and everyone i came upon asked me the same thing

"when are you moving back?"

and my response was always the same

"oh, not for another year at least, if i get into law school out here"

by the end of the weekend, i started seriously considering it, weighing out my options, realizing that summer in provo and winter/fall in provo is DEFINITELY not the same, knowing full well that i would leave not only the comforts of home (being: living rent free, having access to all the things that i need to live comfortably) but also a really good job that was mostly full-time. when i got home monday night, i knew it was the right decision. i was ready for a change, and i was ready to go back. i ran in the house like a chicken with its head cut off and i announced to my mother

"i am moving back to provo"

her response was a surprise to me:

"okay, how are we going to get you up there?"

she then proceeded to listen to all of the logisitics i had worked out in my head on the long (10 hour) drive.

as the excitment from the weekend wore off and the surety i felt turned to doubts and worries, but i still knew i needed to go back. i had wanted to for so long, but the timing wasn't right, and emotionally, i wasn't ready for it. after this trip, i could feel my heart healed and knew i could go back.

so, i started the steps towards moving: i looked for apartments, jobs, and most importantly, a car. i just turned in and signed my contract for an apartment, i'm a step closer to a part-time job (which will be good enough for now) and am still in search of a car.

sure, things could change in the month before i move, but at least i'm taking the steps i need to, and if it's not right, i'll know it. but for now, it's happening.

provo, you better be ready for me.