to change or not to change, that is the question

constancy. {is that even a word?}

(apparently it is. i just looked it up on mac dictionary.)

that's what i like in life.

but i also like change.

complicated?

contradictory?

probably.

but let me explain.

i think change is good in order to keep life interesting and exciting.

change in: scenery, whether that be moving to a new town, new state, new country.

you can start over.

meet new people.

experience new and different cultures.

on the other hand, i have this thing where i can't wrap my head around change.

for example, i've known plenty of people who have dated, moved away and then when they came back, dated someone NEW, and married that person.  it just feels wrong to me.

i felt like this boy and this girl were going to be together, and it's hard for me when i see them dating someone else.

don't get me wrong. i know that there isn't just one person for you.

but when you're so used to seeing those two together and then 2 years later (for most go through the trial of a mission) they end up meeting someone new, it's a hard readjustment.

big changes though? difficult for me to readjust to, unless i am absolutely ready for it.

guess i'll just have to prepare myself for all the changes that inevitably will come about in my lifetime.

{and no, this is not directed at any one person in particular. this was something i thought about as I laid out by the pool yesterday without music}