i'm a huge mental case

i seriously screw up everything because i think way too much about stuff. as much as i try NOT to, i still do. and i don't know how to fix that. I already know that i have serious mental issues (nothing that they have to lock me up for...) but it holds me back from doing the things i love because i'm scared of getting hurt, or being embarrassed or being rejected. OR, i just say and do stupid things because i think that things are weird, when really, it's all in my head. I make it seem worse than it really is and that's when things get screwed up. it's like i can't leave well enough alone. if something is GOOD in my life, something must be wrong because good things just don't happen to me. ever.